Trivial to you?

Morning~

I'm on my work desk right now.

I have just checked my results just now and I must say I heaved a sigh of relief when SIM emailed to say that there may be a delay of the release in results. Instantly, my anxiety evaporates. Boy I must say I am really relieved! I had nightmare yesterday and dreamt that I have failed. Well it's expected. 80% I will fail that subject. I was just so ill-prepared and the exam questions are totally out of norm. I couldn't handle it. But I knew there were others like me, who also found the paper weird and asked things that we weren't usually taught. Now to think about it, perhaps there are too many failures that RMIT decided to review the marking scheme? Still, it doesn't make me feel any better. Because the fact that I will fail isn't going to change.

I felt worst than when I receive my 'A' Level results. Much Much WORST!

But I know that all  these things seem so trivial to you now. Isn't it?

Your worries has now escalated beyond this.

You might be worrying if you are able to keep your job and continue to support our parents. Or worrying the progress of Felix who may or may not be performing well in his academics, and the path he had taken. Rachael should be doing fine. She is the brightest amongst us, but her low social skills makes it hard for her to blend in. However, she should be able to survive.

So.... how are you coping with your stress?

Is it far too much for you to handle ? Are you breaking down now?

Perhaps we should really try to 'let go' -放下. Things weren't that bad as it seems. Life still goes on. It's just that we placed too much importance and cared too much. Maybe if we adopt the 'heck-care' attitude, carefree mode, our life would be so much easier.

I'm thinking of reading Ajaban's book. Going for Buddhist's teaching. Must learn how to learn go so I will be freed from 'physical and mental' sufferings.

Or are you perhaps, already attended all these seminars and led a peaceful worry-free life?

Course you are, I'm glad for you!

29/11/2012
10.53am

What are you doing?

Hello,

How are you? Are you doing fine?

How is your life now?

Are you living the way we have planned it years back? Our dream of riding the horse on the vast open green field, soaking in the chilly cold weather, looking at the young grass as they dances to the symphony of wind .

Or are you sloughing hard behind the white screen, crazily typing away?

I am at Singapore Academy of Law now, working as a temp in the Academy Publishing department. It's 1:45pm - lunch break. And as I type, I am listing to the "Romantic Flight" by John Powell, featured in the movie "How to train your Dragon".  It is a very slow, romantic piece and swells up the emotions in you. Reminds me of the vast open air and makes me dream of soaring in that crystal blue sky.

But back to you,  there are sooo many questions I want to ask.

And I really hope that you (me) , are now in the place we have always wanted to be. Perhaps not in Mongolia, but in some other countries.

How's the people there? I hope they are real friendly. What about the places you have vistied? Are they lovely? Did you manage to enjoy the beautiful scenery, climbed the mountains, taste the delicacies?

Or perhaps... , you have gotten yourselves a boyfriend....???? OooooooO~~

But most of all, did you enjoy every moment of life now? Do your heart feel free and peacefull?

I am looking at pictures of Mongolia now. It's really beautiful, with that ancient looking tent, and the building, have you seen some of them?




Oh I wish I am there now, riding and feeling the breeze brushing against my skin.
But I guess I have to wait huh.
For four more years.

27/11/2012