My Fault

Hello Old Me,

It's 27/6 a day just before we are going to Sentosa and we are all so busy packing. And its just sooo upsetting. BUT hey! It's my fault. This whole thing is a mistake. So the cat's out of the bag. Stupid is going to bring her homework to Sentosa and Mum who's sick is going to stay in the hotel. That leaves the three of us. What's the point? She just justified by saying she never wanted to this at first. And it just makes me fucking mad! I'm mad at how late I know about this and I am more mad when SHE'S FUCKING RIGHT!

I'm imposing this on people. It's a mistake to organise this stupid trip just so we can spend a little more family time together. Because people don't share the same thoughts! I'm just being soo selfish and naive to assume its going to be just a normal outing, every things are going to be fine. And now I'm dreading it. I just really want to get this over and done with. 

Initially I was thinking of spending the day with my friends at the hotel, but I figure why didn't I spend the most special day of my life with my family which is the most important part of my life? And now just thinking the long face Stupid will pull just give make me DAMN REGRETFUL! 

Parents had a short talked with her after I was grumbling while trying to control my disappointment. And now she isn't bring any homework to the island. And it's going to be my fault again because she won't be able to finish her homework in time. So it all boils down to me. GREAT!

What a unforgettable 21st indeed! 

I just don't know how am I going to go through tomorrow. FUCk

Part Time Jobs

Hello Old Me,

It's been a while since I blog here.

I'm currently teaching/having six students.. two were taking a break and were the two I am going to let go. One is going off because she moved house and I couldn't accommodate. One has yet to commence.So all in all I was supposed to have three students-ultimately. And these three students total tuition fee is more more than when I was teaching 4 students. Mainly because the frequency has gone up and so has the rate I charged. And with all the increment, the income that I will be making has increased. Which also means that I have better chances of saving up. (Wheepy?)

But anyway, are you taking any part time jobs aside from your full time. Let's assume this future me has a job okay.. it's tooooo creepy to thing about it. ANYWAY, I'm sure we had it agreed that in the future, I would forsake one of my weekend to work part time in order to have some additional income. Because this additional income may means that I can be less harsh on spending.

It also means that I could have more opportunity to travel.

So I don't know, did you forget about it? Are you teaching piano or language or like primary school levels.

I don't know I'm just curious.

From Moi

Birthday Celebration

Dear dear very old me.

I'm in the midst of preparing for my 21st birthday. Or sort of preparing for it. I am still considering whether to celebrate it or give it a miss. I do very much love to give it a miss but it's a very significant day and it marks the day I reach adulthood. As we both know, we are a very lazy person, we do fulfill the task in one shot, but make a little progress each day. I had considered spending the day in Marina Bay Sands with my nuclear family. It would give the whole family an excuse to spend the night in the luxury hotel without feeling guilty of recklessly spending money.