I'm starting to regret not penning down my feelings when I was working back at the garden centre. I can't remember the exact feelings I had back then.
It was a mere three weeks from my last day at the garden and I'm already feeling very distant. In fact, it felt like I left my previous company ages ago during the first week of work at the new company.
I tried hard to recall the feelings I had back then but to no avail.
What I know was I felt very miserable, sighing all day and was angry at myself for not tendering soon. As I worked, I become comfortable in my work and as according to mom, the more comfortable I am in my work, the less likely I am leaving the company.
Now looking back, I had an easy life. Which was also the reason why I wanted to leave.
The first year was rough but I got better after some time. Now I'm having a rough time adapting, and I'm not sure if this is the company I want to stay for long.
During my free time, I would look at the photos taken when I was at the previous company.
I miss the time that I can just walk out of my office and take a stroll at our retail centre if I have completed my work. I miss creating content for our facebook page. I miss chopping brochures, posters. I miss talking to my designer and crack lame jokes. I miss eating snake with my visual merchandiser though actually I have nothing on hand. I miss talking to my sales staffs - well not all of them. I miss messing up the cat. I miss buying canned drinks from the vending machine. I miss changing money at the cashier counter. I miss attending to sponsorship requests. I miss showing the journalists around. I miss MSP supplies- Alex. I miss talking to the Lee, Said and the accounts dept.
And don't be surprised, but I miss bringing the invoices to my director for signatories.
I can't imagine I was just moving plants three months back for CNY. Now it seems years ago.
As of now, I don't mind taking of these back. Even if it means no pay raise. :(
